we're all rumor whores.

we love to whisper it. we love to listen to it. we love to gather in a circle and gos the sip it. its what we do. its who we are. there's nothing greater than being the first to know. being the first to drop the proverbial g-bomb and scoop the group. i know something you dont know... we love it. we hate it. we love to hate it, even while we do it. but do it we must. and deep down, we all understand why we do it too. which is why it doesnt bother me that the topic du jour has been whether or not im hookin' up with a friend of mine. friends with benefits - my best kinda friend. i understand why people think it. i understand why people do it. why they're compelled. compelled to postulate. compelled to probe. compelled to poke. they really want to know the truth, but they dont really want to know the truth. because if its not true, its more fun to pretend that it is true. which is why most of the time they dont know squat - which is the way i like it. i like to keep my secrets... secret. i tend to kiss and tell... no one. (except you guys of course). ha! i could care less if people think we're sleeping together. she's not bothered by it - which means that im not bothered by it. sticks and stones may break my bones, but two lovers gossip does not us make. or does it?

ive been casually vibin' someone for a while - very cute, great smile, a triathalete - and i finally got a chance to chat her up at a halloween party this past weekend. except it wasnt anything special. which is maybe her fault, but its probably my fault. my fault that i couldnt think up anything in common to talk about (even though i know we have plenty). my fault that i didnt compliment her on her fairy costume (even though i really dug her pink kangaroo sneakers). my fault that i didnt realize that she probably thought that i was involved with my friend... all the while i was making awkward conversation with her. she must think that im such a slimeball. greeeeaaat... cant wait for that rumor to start kickin' around.

sometimes what everyone thinks is actually more important than the truth. sometimes what everyone thinks is actually more important than what anyone can prove. all it takes is one person to start talking about it, and everyone else will pick up on it and believe.

and unless you speak up and stop the presses - unless you speak up and tell people that the rumor is bullshit, the rumor will become the truth.

sounds alot like our presidency dontchya think? ha!