topanga

i dont date.

i dont remember the last date that i went on. i dont remember the first date that i went on.

hell! i dont know if ive ever been on a date!

i dont 'do' dates.

and even if it was a date, i wouldnt consider it a 'date'. it would be something else... 'hangin' out', 'getting a drink', 'grabbing a bite', 'watching a movie', 'going for a fun run'...

yep, im that guy.

im the kinda guy that could go out with a girl - pay for her dinner, take her to a show, buy her drinks, walk her home, and STILL not consider it a date.

it would just be a normal (albeit) expensive night out.

my 'dates' must fuckin love me.

of course since i dont consider it a date, i dont necessarily act like someone who's on a date. sure, i open the door for her, make her laugh, keep the conversation and the drinks flowing, pay the tab, walk her to her door etc. but there are certain rituals that i dont (necessarily) always 'do'.

which might be confusing.

which might throw my ‘dates’ for a loop.

which might get my ‘dates’ wonderin, 'what did i do wrong? was it something i said? was it something i did? was it something i didnt say or do? why didnt... anything happen?'

my 'dates' must fuckin hate me.

(baby, im just not that into you) ha!

which (to be brutally honest) is actually the truth of the matter.

i have alot of friends - i have alot of girl friends, but for one reason or another, i dont want to date any of them. because if i did, we would probably be dating (minus the dates). ha!

of course its never that cut and dry. of course its never JUST my decision. of course its possible that shes just not into me.

which (if that was the case) would work out great for both of us.

we're just not that into each other.

if only it was that easy. if only it was that convenient. if only my life was an after school special.

but its not. and i am thankful. because then i would most likely be 'dating' a girl named topanga, and i would never have any hope of gettin' some. ha!

but seriously, if i dont date, how the hell do i meet people? if i dont date, how the hell do i get to know people? if i dont date, how the hell am i supposed to find the 'one'?

i don’t know.

i don’t know how i meet people. i don’t know how i get to know people. i don’t know how i will find the ‘one’. but i do and i will.

and i am thankful that i do. and i am thankful that i will.

i am thankful that i have a strong family. i am thankful that i have a good job. i am thankful that im not timid. i am thankful that im not (too) shy. i am thankful that im affable. i am thankful that i DO pick up the phone and call. i am thankful that i am patient. i am thankful that i am flexible. i am thankful that i am not too ugly (ha!). i am thankful that i love to learn. i am thankful that i love to read. i am thankful that i know the difference between then and than (ha!). i am thankful that i can string a bunch of words together into a coherent sentence. i am thankful that i can string a couple of coherent sentences into an entire blog. i am thankful that you guys enjoy reading my blog. i am thankful that i like to cook. i am thankful that i like to eat. i am thankful that i like to run. i am thankful that i volunteer. i am thankful that i play volleyball. i am thankful that i play football. i am thankful that i can play practically any sport that i want to.

i am thankful because all of these things make it THAT much easier to meet someone. i am thankful because my strengths make ME a better person, which (in turn) will help me meet - get to know - and find the ‘one’.

but most of all, i am thankful for my friends. we may not be dating, but on this thanksgiving, i am MOST thankful for having each of you in my life.

and who knows… maybe one of you is the ‘one’.