i may be the ugly duckling

i hate being complacent.

i hate feeling like my life is boring and at a standstill.

i hate feeling like the rat race is kicking it to me, instead of the other way around.

fortunately i like change.

fortunately i can change.

fortunately i don't have anything that prevents me from doing so.

ive decided to revamp my life.

we're talking new friends. new living conditions. hell, maybe even a new city.

fuck it. im young. and im bored. fuck it all.

so i decided that i would consider getting a roommate.

nevermind that i don't need a roommate.

nevermind that i haven't had a roommate in 5 years.

nevermind im practically too old for one.

fuck it all.

i cant decide who i want to live (i.e. with a guy or a girl).

obviously there are advantages and disadvantages to both.

i told a friend of mine about my prospective roommate search and she said,

'wow thats great. it would be great if you had a hot guy roommate, but i know thats out of the question, since you're OBVIOUSLY going to end up living with a girl'

i don't know if i should be flattered or insulted (because its probably true).

fortunately life has a sick sense of irony - i checked out a place this weekend where i seriously would be considered the ugly roommate out of four other guys.

that was a blow to the ego - afterall, who the hell wants to be the 'grenade' that nobody wants to hook up with - or even worse, the guy who's girl is always WISHING that she was hooking up with his hot roommates instead.

i mentioned my concerns to my best friend, and he made a really good point - IF i did hang out with these guys, i would definitely be pulling better talent that i would on my own. so what if im picking up the other guyss scraps...

good point. i still may take the place (ha!)